Lost in heaven`aLL I wAnT tO saEe-

Thursday, November 16, 2006

I'm still going strong! It's been 2 months plus now and I'm loving every minute of it. I've been working on my report now... But it's still not really taking shape. Life seems to be passing a teensie weensie bit faster now. I've also realised that I'd kill to get back at some disgusting, childish baskets who have made my life hell... Somehow, I've come to relish the taste of revenge. It's been a long time since I had any inspiration for poems... Damn, my brain is but now a mish-mash of emotions, swirling me deeper into his world. Longing for his touch, dreaming. Man, is this what love really feels like? Somebody tell me! I'm really lost now.

I've been actually contemplating going to Balaclava, just to see Sista Gan and some of the other people. And I'm thinking of bringin' Dexter dearest... Geez... what's a girl to do! And I'm also thinkin' of going where some "lawyer"'s going... Just so I can get back at him for being an absolute DICK to me! Of course, my partner in crime will know just WHO I am explicitly refering to.

I'm finally gonna put this blog up in public I hope, so everyone out there can see what kinda men there are out there! Seriously, some men deserve to be shot! And I'm not saying this just because I'm angry with a few nincompoops. Hasn't it always been so, that subconciously, men just don't consider women's feelings!

Enough of the Humdrum now... I'm kinda busy now... So Shoo! Leave me alone!

UnLeAsHeD by HeaVen - 9:23 AM

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eXplicities -.-`aLL I wAnT tO saEe-

Monday, November 06, 2006

I’d never once in my life thought that I’d be capable of such things. And never would I ever have imagined that I’d ever be blogging such explicit stuff. But after knowing Dexter darling, I realize what the true meaning of passion really means.

Never have I felt so much fervor, nor hunger… Its like an incessant need to be close to him to feel his body, to see him everyday, his charming smile, the twinkle in his expressive eyes, the fever of his touch…

He is my true epitome of perfection, the true sanctuary, the heaven on earth, and I know that I never want to leave his arms again.

It has been such a whirlwind of feelings and I will keep dear to my heart, the fact that he has never been so sure in his life to tell me that I am the one he truly wants for life. A statement that I know, that he has NEVER told any of his ex-girlfriends before. I’m dizzy and exhilarated, knowing that this is my last lap… Before I begin my new life, my new beginning, of forever, with him.

I’ve led a torturous life thus far… always waiting for the ONE… and this time, I’m more than sure that HE is the ONE. I simply love the way you tell me that I’m the one that you want… and I love the way you kiss me… you smile at me… even the crazy things that you do… drives me wild. The funniest thing is, you found me in a place, least orthodox and expected to find a life partner. I’d think that that is a special place. One we’ll forever hold dear to our hearts, and this is still the place that we’ll go to… almost every weekend, just to accompany our beloved Joyce. =D

Life sure has its way of working out things, we’d never once expected to find our soulmates, but after waiting so long and suffering so long, I’m glad to say I’ve found you. You are my saving grace, the one I’m always missing, even though you’re by my side… It’s been heaven and it shall always be… I’m truly looking forward to the day when forever will truly begin.

There are so many things that I wanna say here… But I shall leave that to your imagination and I shall keep what’s meant to be our privacy… OUR privacy >.<” go figure! And yes. DEXTER LEE ENG PENG! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UnLeAsHeD by HeaVen - 9:29 AM

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In heaven...`aLL I wAnT tO saEe-

Friday, October 27, 2006

Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now
(Diane Warren, Albert Hammond)

Lookin' in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that I found is too good to be true
Standin' here beside you want so much to give you
This love in my heart that I'm feelin' for you

Let 'em say we're crazy
I don't care 'bout that
Put your hand in my hand baby don't ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby we could make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together
Stand each storm forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
We'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us
Nothing's gonna stop us now

I'm so glad I found you
I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes
I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times see it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do

Let 'em say we're crazy what do they know
Put your arms around me baby don't ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby we could make it if we're heart to heart

CHORUS
And we can build this dream together
Stand each storm forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers
We'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us (x2)

Ooh all that I need is you
All that I ever need
And all that I want to do
Is hold you forever ever and ever (hey)

REPEAT CHORUS
We can build this dream together
Stand each storm forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
Nothing's gonna stop us
And if this world runs out of lovers
Nothing's gonna stop us

We can build this dream together
Stand each storm forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
World runs out of lovers
Nothing's gonna stop us
We'll still have each other
We can build this dream together
Stand each storm forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now

Yes. Life is GOOD! As time goes by so does my love for him grow. I have nothing but admiration and adoration for him and it’s just so satisfying that he has come into my life.

I know now that I have finally found my sanctuary that I have been searching so long for. Is this what my life is really supposed to be? I’m really thanking my lucky stars that I’ve met someone like you. I’m truly grateful for you having saved me from my miseries.

Yes, we shall always learn to communicate and I will work hard to ensure that we will never end up having all the difficulties that other couples face. For the first time in my life, I’m so proud to have someone, someone like you. If only time could fly… but yet, it seems that it shouldn’t… Because only then, will we be together for eternity, and even eternity is never enough.

It’s comforting to know that we’ll have forever… but it’s just not enough… Life can be so unpredictable.

And Starship's "Nothing's gonna stop us now" seems the perfect song That describes all my hopes and dreams, and I pray dearly that it’s your dreams as well. Indeed, nothing’s gonna stop us!

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There's of course been other things going on in my life. As usual, I’m busy with my work life at CAAS. It’s been rather fun, but tiring and I think I’d definitely consider continuing working in the Airport.

It has also been pretty good having Nicky as a “partner in crime” >.< he’s not what he seems at all… He’s a good bro to have, and yea, I’ve heard some dirt from him about you DBSL. I shall finally unveil you and your lies! It’s unbelievable that you’re such a scumbag and that you can spread such malicious lies about me. Don’t ever let me see you in school, being that fawked up retard that you have taken to become recently.

And yes, that’s a veiled threat! Dainial, don’t be such a dickhead. Do you seriously think that you’re cool saying such things about me? It involves you as well… And if by doing so, you think you have inflated your insignificant ego, then you’re wrong. As I’ve always said, and stuck to my stand, I simply will NOT tolerate male Chauvinist PIGS! Especially pigs like you who think that they can sweep any girl off their feet just by selling their own LIES! I know, 'cause Nick tells me whatever you told him that he can remember. LIAR!

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Voici à la vie dans mon sanctuaire !

UnLeAsHeD by HeaVen - 12:44 PM

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The Start of the beginning of the end of a new beginning.`aLL I wAnT tO saEe-

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

I wanted to blog this on the day itself, but I'm just too busy to do so and there is just no time for me to get to it. Well remembering...
Here I am in the first nite of forever, not yet the official but the start with the one I love most ,in the realm of his childhood era, I’m but an addition, but I pray that I will be his last. The last one to ever sleep on his childhood bed, the last one to be in his life. The one and only. I’ve realized that he is my life and soul, someone I wanna love forever.
That night was midsummer’s night, there was no moon but our memory will live forever. I haven’t played with lanterns for so long as had he… And today, is our mid summer’s nite rendezvous…
It’s a special nite tonite, because tml, will be our 1st month anniversary. The first of many to come.
And all I know is, Dexter, I’ll always love you… When will that day come where we will be truly one thru the unity of marriage?

UnLeAsHeD by HeaVen - 10:36 AM

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Eye candy`aLL I wAnT tO saEe-

Thursday, October 05, 2006

It's been some time since I've posted and I've been so busy working and spending time with him... Well so here's a treat, finally I'm posting my picture online... with him of course... ENJOY =P

Dexter and Me

UnLeAsHeD by HeaVen - 12:17 PM

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Interveniens`aLL I wAnT tO saEe-

Friday, September 22, 2006

Time has come to virtual sandstill. I've been enjoying my exhausting workload at my attachment and baskin in the love of the world's most sweetest lover, life just gets better everyday and my feelings for him escalates every moment. Seeing hi is never enough without feeling the warmth of his touch and the taste of his lips.

I'm dizzy with love and I don't think I can ever wake from this dream. "A love like yours is real, it must have been sent from up above, and I know it'll light my way for always... and we both knowthat our love will grow... and forever, it will be you and me... ooh you're like the sun, chasing all the rain away, when you come around you bring brighter days..."

All I know is that how sweet it is to be loved by you. I can't believe we're so PDA and we're just making everybody embaressesd for us. Just your smile alone drives me wild and I can't ever think of anyone else.

Here, I dedicate this poem to you, My one and ONLY Husbund, for who I'm patiently waiting for...

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Celestial Interveniens~
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The moon has given grace through you
My soul has found eternal sanctuary
With you I know I belong,
I'll never fear the cold again.
The Knight better late than never.
The Prince who made me wait.
Who saved me from the hero's wrong embrace
And brought me back to life again.
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The love for you just multiplies
by lightyears beyond present night
And a million lifetimes from our time
My love for you will still remain
Your touch is my life force,
Your dreams are my reality
Heaven so real,
Your soul compliments mine.
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I'll never love another,
the way I'm loving you.
My hope when hope is gone
My life when life is thru`
My Celestial Dream
My Ethereal Fantasy
Never will I leave you again
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The ONE for me
The light of my soul
A thousand heaven's could not have foretold
You came a bolt of lightning
A beautiful vision in the rain
My love for you I hold forever dear
I can't live a second without you near.
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Forever you will be
My one and only
To have and to hold
For the eternity of my soul
Forever my love
Forever in love.

UnLeAsHeD by HeaVen - 7:45 PM

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In dreamland`aLL I wAnT tO saEe-

Friday, September 15, 2006

So many things have been happening in this short span of time. In all my years of existence, I never contemplated the fact that I would leave someone like him. And I'm glad. It was a relief to escape from the dragon and be saved by a hero... some one like him... But yet, life presents itself in the most unexpected ways. I know for sure now where my life is and where it will lead me to... Right into the arms of my true knight in shining armor the one I know that I truly want to spend my life with.

To that hero who saved my life. I love you, I thank you, but I've realised I'm not in love with you. My heart lies with him, the knight of my soul, the light of my life, the one that makes all morbidity go away, the one that truly takes away my pain, the one that my soul aches for, the one where everything he does make me feel eternity with him... It's just unbelievable that I could find someone like him, that truly sweeps me off my feet, though I have encountered heroes throughout my once miserable life, none have made me feel that I could put down everything just to be with him, to put down my fears and open my soul to him. Even that hero who saved my life did not open my soul. I realise this is something so hard for me to express, something so difficult to fathom, it's just a train of thought that runs through the length of my soul...
DEXTER LEE YING PING! I LOVE YOU! =x HAHAHA (damn is that how to spell his chinese name lol)

UnLeAsHeD by HeaVen - 7:57 PM

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